When I first worked with my teacher from Peru in 2012, he kept repeating three important words to us, his first class ever in the US:
I didn't understand what he was talking about.
When I went to Peru the next fall, I began to get a glimmer of Decision.
Decision is all about what you choose. It's about choosing a path and sticking to your decision.
Decision opens doors. Decision mobilizes the universe. When you decide, the waveform collapses and possibilities simplify into one laser-focused path.
Most of us have the thought that we'll start a new project "when it feels right." We decide to wait. I am no stranger to auspicious moments, true, but in most cases, we create opportunity when we decide.
I began to more fully understand what Decision was really about when I was camped at 14,000 feet on the side of a great Being of Light, one of the most sacred mountains in the Andean Cosmology. I was there to learn and to do ceremony. My body didn't want to be. We'd done ceremony after ceremony after ceremony, I had had projectile diarrhea the night before, and my stomach was churning like a washing machine. What to do?
Part of me wanted to go home. A really big part of me. And another part of me was damned and determined that I was going to get my money's worth: after all, I'd spent close to five figures on this one trip and I was going to do it all, no matter what!
Despite little sleep, great irritation, churning stomach, shortness of breath and the fear of crapping my pants in the middle of nowhere with no warning, I Decided. I did not stay in my warm, comfy sleeping bag. I did not ask to be taken off the mountain. Despite feeling like warmed-over dogshit, I got up at dawn, took no breakfast (couldn't stomach it), hiked another 1,000 feet up and spent the day in ceremony with my fellow students. I avoided lunch, mostly because I thought I'd heave. We had another purification that afternoon in the river by which we were doing ceremony. The water was glacial melt; icy. And I had to drink some of it. I briefly worried about getting sick(er) from it, but just did it.
And I was fine.
On that trip I discovered that I have more resolve than I ever thought possible. I found that I had reserves I didn't know about. I discovered that deciding to do something can make discomfort, fatigue and lack of sleep and food fall away. Decision and Intention go together that way.
Decision flips a switch and puts the universe in play in a way that waiting-and-seeing does not. It mobilizes.
Just do it. Make the decision that you've been on the fence about. Remember that you can decide something different later, even 5 seconds later if you want to.
Decide and commit and do.
Come on in, the water's fine!